wonder

my eyelashes brush against my arm if I'm laying in the right way. the wind is cold, it bites. I don't cover myself. I can't cover myself.

I wonder. the traffic lights glow from the outside. green red green red green red green red

it's never yellow, why is it never yellow?

I wonder.

the floor is cold against my feet, the song repetitive (a tune from almost forty years ago, I saw it on this tv show) as I exit my room, lost.

I wander.

I don't know what i feel.

I don't know if i know how to feel.

how does it feel?

feelings?

how do you feel them?

I wonder as I wander.

the lights are brighter here, friend. I don't feel the wind anymore. it glows yellow blue pink purple yellow yellow again.

there is yellow here.

take your meds, drink your water, hope for the green light (i want it i want it).

I wander.

is this d
is this e
is this a
is this t
is this h

I wonder.